But this is real life. It ain't Phit Droid or Sudoku. In life's problem, there is of course a solution. However there is a twist. Is either that the solution brings another problem or it only solves most of the problems but not all of it. God is funny eh? Its like near impossible to make everyone happy. I just have to pick which is the better choice and stay there. Why must it be this way is the question that I hold no answer to. Ask the big guy if you have the chance.
The idea of a happy ending is just a mere dream I suppose. I hate myself being a perfectionists at times. Just keep on trying to make everyone happy. Doesn't matter if I'm not. I remember a dear friend of mine, who somehow manage to see deep in me(true emotions), ask this question when she was telling me her troubles and problems she is having and I did the same thing. It was some time ago, therefore the details it is not accurate. She ask that, why is it that you have such a bigger problem than me, and a serious one, but here you are, on a daily basis, manage to keep on smiling even though you are dying inside? She said that she find it so fake and I should just behave according to what I feel. Brilliant question to ask that actually question my actions. But I simply replied, I believe that no matter how fake my smile is, if it brings happiness for those around me, therefore I will never stop smiling ever again, even if I wanted to cry so badly.
Haha. I still can't believe I said that. It was on top of my head. Believe me, I usually would never say that kind of sissy stuff. Not manly at all. All in all, I see myself that others around me are more important than me despite they are total strangers. Good thing or bad? Feel free to answer either since I also do not have a clear answer. So, I am a pathetic person or a vain hero?
Exams really makes me weirder and dumber. Back to procrastinating then.
You'll always be my hero!
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