A Dreadful Recipe Of The Infamous Political Cookie

What I'm about to say in this post might be pointed out as dangerous, perhaps slight racist and very political. You have been warned.

I am a Muslim in this country. But I'm not a Malay. I always hated to clarify this every time people assume that I am a Malay. It is not an insult to me if I am viewed as a Malay but I think the very idea of race today or even the thought of inquiring one's race is either obsolete or dangerous question.

Obsolete because one is always viewed from the nationality of a person rather than the race of the person especially in this age where world-wide communication is happening and every individual can know about the other countries with a stroke of a keyboard. Dangerous is because it can be considered as stereotyping a person based on assumption on 1st impression. In books I have read, stereotyping is a natural phenomenon as we are just human. But, although our mind or thought may stereotype a person, it is best however to disregard such thought and only reach a conclusion based on facts and question, not presumptions.

Reason to this blog post is to redirect my fear for this country especially with alarming news basing the issues of Muslim and non Muslims rights in this country. Sadly, this is the front page of the newspaper. Time after time, this so-called 'issue' is being debated back and forth by political parties. In my perspective, what ever is their goal is for doing so, they should stop. The concept of race is like a fire so to say. It is essential to have as it warms the people around it but having it too much could lead to an inferno for those same people. Race is essential. It is who we are and it is our identity. I always find it admirable that some are proud of their race. But, it is also a sensitive issue to many. Be proud all you can about your race but be respectful in return to others.

As for me, race is never an issue for me personally. I feel that we are equal in many ways and also can be different in many ways. But that's what I love about being a human. We are so unique in every way and yet there are still many similarity in every of us. Back on the political aspect, many citizen possessing great skill and mind have left the country. This is call Brain Drain. Mostly, the reason the left the country is because of money or because of the current condition of the country. Most parents believe that success and new ideas is only achievable on foreign lands, not here. They are in view that there are many restrictions here that would block the potential therefore one should work abroad so that such potential will be appreciated.

On this topic, I can understand it and also I can argue against it. Call it my own dilemma. I agree that when I bring a whole new idea or a concept, they would respectfully refuse it because they feel comfortable with the last year's idea. Perhaps they may find it a radical thing to do or they are just afraid of doing something new. But, if I discuss it with others that appreciate change or betterment, they usually suggest more improvements to that idea that I have given. I do not mind getting my ideas turn down like that but I believe that there are things one should change in the idea to better themselves and some things should not be changed at all in the name of faith, belief, and tradition.

To further contradict myself in this topic, I believe those people who left the country should stay and try to bring change here. Wits such a brilliant mind and fantastic skills, there must be someone that can appreciate it. Some say it is a lost cause but a slight improvement is better than no improvement.

As to my conclusion, to those fellow in the government currently or in future, think of the importance of your every action today as time shall tick away without mercy. If a person can waste time stating the rights of a person based on faith and race, think that the same time which was wasted could be used in a more beneficial way to improve the current status of this beautiful country.

p/s-If there is any comment or complaint to this blog, please put it in the comments below. But bare in mind, this is only a matter of opinion. If you disagree, I do not mind having a good debate, but nothing more than a debate. Hahaha

No idea for a Cookie recipe to satisfy such hunger

I think I'm in pain or something else I'm feeling. Got no clue. Sometimes upset, sometimes emotional, sometimes irrational. Currently having a company helps a little. Reading some random books that has nothing to do with my studies also helps. Damn I love books and reading them. I think I prefer to be a librarian now. Random? I doubt it. Loved reading since I was 3 years old I think?

Besides the fact, I still cant figure out or solve the puzzle why I'm feeling like this. I would describe it but even I do not know what it is. Which is better? A doctor for me or a psychologist examining me? Symptoms or problems? What is the reason of this problem is also beyond me. Frankly I might think it is exams coming up. Or the unsettling fear of me failing such exams and possibly drop out from college. I have to be honest though, the idea of being a drop-out is quite attractive even though it will be hard on me financially and 'future-ly'.

That is all then. FYI, Dean is awesome than Sam Winchester. Adios!

Time Warp Emo Recipe is Not Advisable to follow for baking this Cookie

I AM EMO! AM HIDING FOR A WHILE TEMPORARILY. HAIH

Relapse Cookie

I don't like it anymore. The same things. Every single day. Wake up, go class, go back. Mix some with work, assignment, sleep and etc. Nothing surprises me anymore. Same only. Need to get out of here. I'm to used having a car. Or at least drive. I miss driving. Not just my car. ANY car would be fine. And yes. I miss having friends that always have randomness in their head or at least entertains me whenever I'm with them. Tried football and basketball the other day. It was okay. Rainy season is not good for my health. Been sick. Showering in the rain of course. My bad. I am actually alone most of the time. On purpose. Just get away from people. Is that bad? Dunno oso lar. Its good anyway. I could focus on study. Not there is anything else to do pun.

An emotionaly disturbed cookie

Point there. Not that this is what I was feeling. It was what I was thinking when I think of the old me. Trying to be who I really am? Sounds logical. No arguments there. But like I said. Just thinking bout the past. Something to ramble and to purge out from my system. I would say that now I'm a total different man. Still an optimist though. But no more dreams, hopes or anything unreal. Except God of course. Other than that, I believe it when I see it. I think what I want to think.

But everyone knows that I have a problem to react according to my own emotions.
When I'm angry, I might laugh
When I'm happy, I might cry
When I'm emo, I do not know how to do that.
So it's a little hard for me to do that. I find it amazing that they can just laugh when they feel like it, curse to others cause they are angry and simply cry because something terrible has happened. To be honest, something did happen. A family member of mine passed away. We aren't close but he is just 2 year older than me. Engaged and successful. It strike me in a way I do not understand.I mean, I'm just lost at words right now. I even began to wander around, walking with umbrella on my hand, journey past the rain, to absolute no where. Thinking if I actually die right now, in this minute, would anyone be genuinely sad or care? True that if i die, I die alone. I just do not know what I'm thinking now. Just at a dark dark place right now. How did I even get here in the 1st place? Did the things happening around me changes me? I do not remember being angry all the time. I do not remember the time where I always be with my close friends and not alone in a corner somewhere.

Fuck this shit k? I really do not know WHAT is happening to me. ARGH!!!!! Fuck it!

Einstein's Cookie

I like puzzles. Mainly I like to find solutions for every problem. And a little perfectionist also. That is just me. But when I think it over, I actually prefer to dwell in a problem where I'm very sure that there is a solution in the end. If there aren't any solution to the problem, I would probably be very annoyed and perhaps lost in my head. Sore loser eh? I'm human.

But this is real life. It ain't Phit Droid or Sudoku. In life's problem, there is of course a solution. However there is a twist. Is either that the solution brings another problem or it only solves most of the problems but not all of it. God is funny eh? Its like near impossible to make everyone happy. I just have to pick which is the better choice and stay there. Why must it be this way is the question that I hold no answer to. Ask the big guy if you have the chance.

The idea of a happy ending is just a mere dream I suppose. I hate myself being a perfectionists at times. Just keep on trying to make everyone happy. Doesn't matter if I'm not. I remember a dear friend of mine, who somehow manage to see deep in me(true emotions), ask this question when she was telling me her troubles and problems she is having and I did the same thing. It was some time ago, therefore the details it is not accurate. She ask that, why is it that you have such a bigger problem than me, and a serious one, but here you are, on a daily basis, manage to keep on smiling even though you are dying inside? She said that she find it so fake and I should just behave according to what I feel. Brilliant question to ask that actually question my actions. But I simply replied, I believe that no matter how fake my smile is, if it brings happiness for those around me, therefore I will never stop smiling ever again, even if I wanted to cry so badly.

Haha. I still can't believe I said that. It was on top of my head. Believe me, I usually would never say that kind of sissy stuff. Not manly at all. All in all, I see myself that others around me are more important than me despite they are total strangers. Good thing or bad? Feel free to answer either since I also do not have a clear answer. So, I am a pathetic person or a vain hero?

Exams really makes me weirder and dumber. Back to procrastinating then.

Can you cook the Cookie?

Heh.
Can you fight?
Would you?
Even though there isn't any reason to do so?
Its still there
Hidden
Not that deep
That will
to fight
to punch
to kick
Stupid phobia still give me the creepers though
I do wonder what would happen if that incident never occur
Would I be the same?
Or still a bully like last time?
It was easier back then
Yeah yeah
A jack-ass sure
But
It's fun
If that matters
Rambling again
Fuh
Another story reminds me
A guy cheats on the girl
It flashes back again
Must man do that?
Is it that necessary?
Ain't that hard to stay loyal
Is it?