Can you cook the Cookie?

Heh.
Can you fight?
Would you?
Even though there isn't any reason to do so?
Its still there
Hidden
Not that deep
That will
to fight
to punch
to kick
Stupid phobia still give me the creepers though
I do wonder what would happen if that incident never occur
Would I be the same?
Or still a bully like last time?
It was easier back then
Yeah yeah
A jack-ass sure
But
It's fun
If that matters
Rambling again
Fuh
Another story reminds me
A guy cheats on the girl
It flashes back again
Must man do that?
Is it that necessary?
Ain't that hard to stay loyal
Is it?

Where is the recipe?

Heh
Need some one to teach me how to emo
stress is piling up as well
stupid exams
least scott pilgrim brighten my day
cool songs and shit
fuh
debates in my head has began
who will win?
i wonder
argh
life is sucky and interesting like that
the curse of choices
one will lead to another
till no end
or till you end
yeah
ending it
why the heck im writing short phrases per line
weird
crap
im doing it again
haha
who cares
screw the grammar
time to scream it out
rock it loud
dont forget to shout
others aren't allowed
lets freak freak out the audience around
hahaha
that ryhmes
me losing my head?
too late eh?
why ppl always view me the same thing?
am i that boring?
since long i can remember
i always been labeled the same barcode
like seriously
do i need to change?
hurm
i wonder would that be nice?
cause lately
everything seems sooo routine
like a freaking robot
HATING IT!!!
like seriously
need something new
something that could catch me off guard
like geting lost in the forest
or the front lawn
doesn't matter
losing interests is a problem apparently
makes me lose focus
total blur for life
WAH!!!
damn long wey!
nyahahaha
try to keep up then
still got meters to go
just stop now
before you turn blind
the demon is writing
reading more will be bad for your life span
the demon has put a spell on these words
every words are read by the reader, a second of the readers life's span shall be taken away
NO JOKE!!!
see how many words now youre reading!
just stop
NOW
.
.
Please
.
.
why are u reading this?
better question here would be
WHY AM I STILL WRITING???
Thanks for wasting your time reading this
it has lead you to absolute boredom
haha
I have a problem
a serious problemas
and yet
i'l take it to the grave
no one will know
none shall find out
sad huh?
not really
sounds more heroic if you as me
probably in denial
nyahahahaha
someone is stalking me
a ninja of the dark
i'm unable to see him
that is so cool huh?
walking around without people seeing you.
bubye

Donut Shaped Cookie

Felt like I just got shot in between my eyes.
The burst of blood rushing upwards naturally to seal the wound
But alas its pointless
The blood drips away
Losing consciousness
Heading towards the light they say

I gave up several important things in life
That meant a lot to me
Which usually helps me to smile when I drown in the sea of troubles
But no more

One would say, I have to stand by my two feet
No friends
No help
No advices
No comforts from those I love

Its saddening
That's for sure
But all this to accomplish something that seems impossible
To reunite them
To bring them back together before they realise that it is a little too late
Why can't they see this?
Why?
Am I and him brings no meaning to you?
Are we just pets that you bought and raised?

I felt no home anymore
I lost that feeling
Even it is fills with smiles and laughter
Occasionally jokes and several intellectual discussions
But it is like something is amiss
Like everything around me seems fake
Fragile
Pointless

It ain't the same
I gave up a lot
To unite you
So that you get along again
Or fight till you do

My journey is tough
One would be able to trace it with my sweat and tears I left behind
Fudge it
Keep on walking even I see the wall right in front
Its the chu-chu train of death

A Haunted Cookie on Halloween

It's happening again.
Repeatedly banging, screaming
How is this possible?
I was confident that it will not happen
All the precaution has been taken
But obviously its a clear failure
All those time, hours and days
All were used to avoid such monstrosity
Now it happening
Headache
Like a meteor shower in the brain
Would I say it is beyond logic?
One would agree
Pathetic and yet it makes me trembles in fear
Not knowing the cause and its effect that it could lead
There I was, standing alone
awkwardly
shaken
dumb-founded
clueless
like Santa Clause at the Sahara on the month of February
sighing wont help
thinking wont help
Doomed? Perhaps.
Not enough good sleep
look like hell too
but
It aint over till its over
journey on till the battery runs out
clarify till I see the clock tick's its final tick
showtime folks
Lets begin the End...

Toy Cookie

It is an interesting talent to hide true feelings from most people. It's very handy to keep people from asking too much question at bay. Surely of course, there will be times that such talent would drag on and on till it confuses you on what or perhaps who are you. Some would say it is a good thing, some would say otherwise. To lose yourself is it a good thing or not? Haha. No clue on this part of the island.

In addition to that inquiry, exams and stress aren't helping much either. Fuh. Annoyance is one thing but seriously, to me, exams is more like a race against time, not a test of knowledge or understanding. If I were given 5 hours or 6 for a paper, I would probably aced it. And please don't tell me that I should practice more writing to increase the speed. Been there, done that. Still more or less the same.

Listening to Paolo Nutini, Candy and Red Hot Chili Peppers, Dani California

Medicine Cookie

Stuck in hospital. Sucky sucky! Didn't even realize I haven't ate a proper meal for three days yo. No wonder felt so tired. Then got admitted to some random hospital cause I fainted. Lucky the person didnt take my wallet ke apa. Thanks Uncle Soh. I'm in debt to you.

Now since my miss 3 days of study time, my life is disarray as we speak. Tomorrow is exam. I cant say I'm well prepared but consider myself doomed. All I had in that hospital was my hand phone. Naturally, I keep it a secret. Especially my parents. I'll die if they found out. So what now? FUDGE LIFEE!!!! Take it like a dream. Whoosh it away.

Crappy Cookie

Crap crap Holy Crap on a Crapper!
Do I look okay?
Are you alright Ali?
Are you having problems? You don't look as usual.

These are the usual questions that people around me kept asking me. I'm not annoyed by it since some of them are sincere bout it but I do get very disappointed by it. There was once upon a time I can pull off a perfect poker face. No one would have the slightest idea of what I was feeling at all. Haih.

My mind is not how it is used to be. I kept getting unfocused and distracted. There are times I think bout every action I did in the past and at times, I do regret bout it, but at times, I don't. Clueless is such a heartless bitch. Don't you agree?

Time doesn't wait for no man. And it makes me wonder. What am I doing? Is it important? Or just pointless? Perhaps I'm just wasting time on all this. Least I know several thing that is definite bout my current situation.

1. I don't trust people anymore. No matter who, no matter what, I always doubt them.
2. I manage to build a cocoon to distant myself from people even though it is so not good for me at ALL
3. Cats still entertains me when I'm down in the dumps.
4. Smoking cigarette is quite tempting for me but not for my wallet. Hahaha.(Cheapskate)
5. I'm obsessed at being alone and away from everyone just to see whether people would take notice or not.(The usual no of course. No surprise there)
6. I really need to learn how to emo and let out my feelings to another human.